Do you know the feeling that you're working hard, investing time and energy in different projects, but you don't see the results you were hoping for. Reality doesn't look like the pretty picture in your head.
This can be frustrating.
The last days, actually the last weeks, I struggled with impatience!
Everything couldn't get fast enough.
I worked hard, invested in many projects and a lot was going on:
And this list could go on. There are tons of opportunities! So much to do in one lifetime.
I love being busy, working hard. The only thing is, it can get a little chaotic in my mind. Especially when I invest, and invest and invest, but I don't see any results (yet). I get impatient, grumpy and disappointed, which can be pretty challenging (also for Freek ;).
A lack of focus doesn't help in this situation. But that what I miss sometimes. I still have to get used to being my own boss. It's fanatstic to choose my own projects and how I fill my days. Full freedom! Everything is possible. There are no colleages, no managers, no meetings. But there is also no-one telling me where to focus on and what the priorities are.
Pretty scary so now and than!
And that can make you (me) crazy. This situation is a paradise for the crazy-monkey-mind.
I know the monkeys in the head full of thoughts, ideas and worries and all the ups and downs. I'm not one of these very balanced persons, living a 'steady' life. I'm more the rollercoaster-type: I'm enthusiast and emotional and sensitive.
So I know from my self that I have ups and downs.
I'm sure, most of you may know the ups and downs, too. And it's not so hard. The theory behind it is clear to me: there are times to plant seeds in the ground and times to harvest. Or it's like the tides: there is ebb and flow. Or like surfing a wave in the ocean...and than falling back in the water. In a way these two phases need each other: standing up and falling down.
Life in general, relationships and definitly business develop in phases.
So the principles are clear. When it's high tide, everything is fine with me as I understand the idea that I'm surfing on a wave knowing that I will fall, but I'm focussing on the nice ride.
But I hate falling!
I'm so bad at it. Every time it shakes me, it's overwhelming and I am scared!
I start to doubt the whole idea and I wonder if it will ever get better?
And than, just before you want to give up...there it is! The end of the tunnel. A good result. A solution. Something you wanted so badly.
The patience is back. The worst part is over. Clearance in your head. The monkeys are back in the cage.
And for the next time... let's try to have more trust in the better times.
And in the meanwhile...
Here’s a recap in pictures from the last weeks, and for those of you who aren’t on Instagram, come and join me!
On this blog I share the tiny steps it takes to realise a dream and to document the journey for myself. Maybe it is inspiring for you- I would love that and it is the reason why I share it with you.