This can be frustrating.
The last days, actually the last weeks, I struggled with impatience!
Everything couldn't get fast enough.
I worked hard, invested in many projects and a lot was going on:
- I have moved,
- I started many creative projects decorating our new home,
- I'm doing my best networking and getting to know new people in Den Haag,
- we went on holidays,
- I love spending time with wedding preparations...
- I'm still at the beginning of my soultravel building my art business
And this list could go on. There are tons of opportunities! So much to do in one lifetime.
A lack of focus doesn't help in this situation. But that what I miss sometimes. I still have to get used to being my own boss. It's fanatstic to choose my own projects and how I fill my days. Full freedom! Everything is possible. There are no colleages, no managers, no meetings. But there is also no-one telling me where to focus on and what the priorities are.
Pretty scary so now and than!
And that can make you (me) crazy. This situation is a paradise for the crazy-monkey-mind.
I know the monkeys in the head full of thoughts, ideas and worries and all the ups and downs. I'm not one of these very balanced persons, living a 'steady' life. I'm more the rollercoaster-type: I'm enthusiast and emotional and sensitive.
So I know from my self that I have ups and downs.
I'm sure, most of you may know the ups and downs, too. And it's not so hard. The theory behind it is clear to me: there are times to plant seeds in the ground and times to harvest. Or it's like the tides: there is ebb and flow. Or like surfing a wave in the ocean...and than falling back in the water. In a way these two phases need each other: standing up and falling down.
Life in general, relationships and definitly business develop in phases.
So the principles are clear. When it's high tide, everything is fine with me as I understand the idea that I'm surfing on a wave knowing that I will fall, but I'm focussing on the nice ride.
But I hate falling!
I'm so bad at it. Every time it shakes me, it's overwhelming and I am scared!
I start to doubt the whole idea and I wonder if it will ever get better?
And than, just before you want to give up...there it is! The end of the tunnel. A good result. A solution. Something you wanted so badly.
The patience is back. The worst part is over. Clearance in your head. The monkeys are back in the cage.
And for the next time... let's try to have more trust in the better times.